I hope you all are well and safe! I'm sending out love to all of you, in hopes that it may reach...and help during these unpredictable times. Let's focus on what we can do and live without regrets.
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     I started this blog almost four years ago, with the goal of chronicling my writing journey during college. But things didn't go as I expected.
     During my sophomore year, I began to doubt my writing abilities and felt I needed to give it up. I spent so much time trying not to write anything, thinking I had nothing good to show the world. After two semesters of not writing creatively, I found that I felt that something was missing...that I was incomplete. I studied writing again. But my work still fell short to some, though there were others who enjoyed it. That was when I started to realize that there is an audience for every kind of work.
     This year, my senior year, I have been rewriting the first novel I ever wrote. I wrote it during my freshman and sophomore year of high school. Now, I'm working on it again. The story has changed so much from the first draft and has gone in directions that I never anticipated. I had to say good-bye to some characters and become acquainted with some new ones. Then again, I have changed a lot since I wrote it nearly eight years ago. I too have said good-bye to many and met many more. And my life has turned in directions that I never could have known ahead of time.
     I feel restless. I feel like there is something I should be doing, but I don't know what it is. I've decided to make some changes, hoping that they may help. I have officially shut down all of my other blogs. Most of them I didn't update much so it isn't a big deal. But one of them was my poetry blog. I'm not exactly sure why but I felt like I needed to make a change in regards to my poetry. It didn't feel right to post them.
     There is only one blog that I am hesitant to shut down, this one. On one hand, it feels like the purpose of this blog is nearly complete. Soon I won't be a creative writer at college. I hardly ever wrote about my writing revelations and I'm not sure if I will write any during the time that is left.
     But this was my first attempt at putting myself out there for anyone to see. Granted, I used a pseudonym because I was too scared to own that I was writing about myself online. Now, I feel like I have many stories to tell, both from my imagination and from my life. Should I do that here? Should I try something else? I don't know.
     I've loved being the Magical Blue Dragon. But I also feel it is time for me to own who I am, and to write without fear.