A Year’s Progression

I’ve felt this way towards

You since we met,

Though I couldn’t recognize

What it was until months had passed.

When I see you,

My heart gasps and my

Nerves jump and I can

Never look you in the eye.

When you smile,

I can’t help but be happy

No matter what may be

Plaguing me that day.

The way you speak

Has me entranced,

And the way you think

Tempts me to push my

Anxiety aside and talk to you.

But something has changed

And I find myself drawn to you.

For when I see you,

I hate walking away.

I feel like holding you

In my arms and being

Close to you.

I doubt you’d feel the same.

But when you talk to me

Or say my name in passing,

I think it could be possible

That you feel how I feel.

And while I can’t

Get you off my mind,

I no longer want to

Push these feelings aside.

I no longer wish that it would end

And I no longer think of this as torture,

Because I want to always

See you when I close my eyes.

The only pain this causes me

Is the silence between us,

A wall that I don’t know can be broken

Or if you’d want it to fall.

But on the first day we met

you stole my heart,

And only now can I feel the weight

Of the emptiness inside.

This feeling gets stronger

Each day that goes by.

And when I would deny it,

It would seem to double in a blink.

So I hope if I speak,

I can tell if there is any hope.

Though the thought of rejection

No longer scares me like it did.