Hey all!

I have decided to drop prompt responses from my blog. I found that I don't really like writing in response to a prompt that has nothing to do with my stories. I don't know what I'm going to write instead. I've already tried a couple ideas but they didn't turn out well. Then again, I figured that this week would be tough for writing due to the fact that I turn 20 tomorrow.

I don't know why but right now, I've been having what some may call a "mid-life" crisis. I mean, it isn't entirely impossible considering I had one when I turned 16. Though, I knew what caused the crisis. You see, when I was younger and more foolish, I thought that 16 was a magical age in which I would be an adult. As a result, it seemed only logical that I would have a novel published by then and that I would be a famous and respected author. However, when I turned 16, that hadn't happened. I remember wondering what the hell I had been doing with my life. I would often cry over the fact that I didn't even have a finished novel yet (I wouldn't have the first draft done until a year later...and I am still working on that novel). Eventually, I got over it...for the most part.

However, I have no freaking clue what I thought I was going to be doing by age 20. I can only imagine what my young mind thought back then in the land of impracticality and mixed-up perceptions. All I know is that I feel like I'm supposed to be doing something that I'm not and so I feel like I failed in some way. I have never failed in anything though! So what am I not doing that is causing myself to feel so disappointed? I'm not sure. And it may not actually have anything to do with what I'm not doing at all. I know that I'm not afraid of becoming a year older. In fact, I feel like I would feel better if I were turning 21 rather than 20 which makes no freaking sense! So I must have some association attached to 20...I just wish I could remember what it was.

At any rate, I'll let you all know what I decide to do. I'm hoping I'll have something figured out by the time I post next week.

I hope you all have an awesome week!