I am who I am.
My mind is mine.
and this heart burns
For my aspirations.

I have been lost for
a while, but now I
See where I struggle-
Leaving my life in

Someone else's hands.

Feeling hopeless, they
like to take advantage
of my downslides-
so that I only hear the negative.

I know I'm fucked up!

But now I feel a fire.
I am not as weak as I 
may have seemed
before.

And I am braver
than you could know.
I have already faced a war-
so how could life make a

Victim out of me.

I'm done with the influencers,
Of these downhill moods.
And I'm done saying that
there is nothing I can do.

Cause I am still standing here
after every time I thought that
Life would break me-
or that my body would fail me.

I am not perfect
But I am damn well near it!
Because there is no blueprint
For who I should be in comparison.

No matter what it is
that comes my way,
No matter what ailment
Fights me,

No matter how many
Fucking words I yell
at myself in hate,
I will turn it into

Something better.

For I am the fighter.
I am the warrior-
I am the goddess of
My talents!

So don't think you
can Undermine me,
Critique me,
or look at me like

I'm the plague.

Cause I sure as hell
have been through worse-
and I was born to fight
Bigger battles than

The ones questioning my worth.

I am not taking that shit anymore.

So the little girl who only
watched as her father yelled-
And the girl who cried when alone,

The little girl who couldn't
defend herself against the
Bullies' words or hits,

The one who preferred to
give up and pretend, in a fantasy,
that she was a warrior...

She is now my ward.

I am the protector of her
Dreams and her heart
Broken a thousand times over.

the Sorceress, the Queen,
the Renegade Revolutionary,
and the World Changer,
are finally on the surface...

and there is no way
I'll stop, now that I
Realize I am the one
Who can never be silent.
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Hey all! I have been going through a lot lately, and it's been taking quite a toll on my mental health. However, today I got hit by a wave of empowerment. It will take some time, but I don't want to think ill of myself anymore. I am the way I am and anyone who has an issue with that can go fuck themselves. I may not know what makes people give me weird looks or why some people hate me on sight but I decided it really doesn't matter to me anymore. I'm tired of being sad and unmotivated to do anything. I'm tired of thinking that there is no way I can change what's happening to me. I am tired of questioning what I'm worth because, really, I'm worth a lot more with each day that I'm alive. I may not be able to completely control my health and I may not always get an A (that part was hard to type being the perfectionist i am but the fact I typed it is progress) but I can either beat myself up about it or move on. Just like I can either let my past haunt me or make my peace, recognize the mistakes, and move forward wiser than before. And I definitely have a mind of my own and a voice to go with it and they are a lot stronger than I have made them out to be for a while.

Also, I am thinking that I might start a Youtube Channel soon. I think I'll start by making videos in which I read the poems aloud and go from there. Still thinking through the pros and cons of it but I will let you know what I decide.

Anyway, I hope that you are all doing well! Have a magical week!