These are the paths
That lay in front of me-
All of them chosen
By many who came
Before me.

Which can I choose?
Which one can I live
with, even when I
face failure and
discourse?

Which can I be
happy with, and
have few regrets
that I decided to
have my life like that?

I've been walking one
path for so long.
I jumped across to another,
promising I would return when
I learned what I wanted to.

But now I find myself
Confused about where I am.
Did I make the wrong choice?
Am I not as capable as I thought-
Or is all this walking, tiring me out?

Where did my motivation go?
Where did my authority leave me?
When did I become the woman
who stopped deciding where I
want to be?

This stranger who walks on the
path so many others picked with
passions in their hearts,
but only settlement in mine,
as if I ran out of options.

When did the rain come
and douse my ambition?
Who am I anymore?
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     Hey everyone! I know this is a bit late but this semester is already crazy.

     Often times in one's life, one questions their choices and if the direction they are heading in is really where they want to go, commonly referred to as a "midlife crisis". Last semester was tough for me and I still find myself exhausted from everything that happened. It's made getting into the swing of things for this semester especially difficult. However, it also kind of feels like I was thrown into something that everyone else got a tutorial for and I skipped through some lack of attention.

     In addition, this is the semester in which I have to pick a major. I didn't think anything would change so I decided to stop working on multiple tracks for a fall back and picked what I thought I would like the most. While I do have an interest in the subject I'm studying, something feels off about this semester and I don't know if it's the fact that this isn't the field for me or if it's just a hard point that I need to push through.

     At any rate, it feels as if I've woken up in someone else's life...and I hate it. Am I putting practicality above what I truly want? Am I focusing on something more than I should be? I have no idea.

     I hope everything is going well with all of you! Until next time!